The problem? I decided to take part in the six-sister's stuff 8-week Get Healthy Challenge. http://www.sixsistersstuff.com/2012/01/8-week-printable-weight-loss-get.html
Not only did I commit myself to this challenge but I am the lead person in our mini Facebook group. In this challenge you are supposed to forego sweets for six out of seven days in the week. And I know I shouldn't eat a full cake in one day. And I am too competitive to let the points go and eat the cake over the course of a week.
Normally I allow a few calories for sweet treats. This is my favorite recipe that comes in at only 74 calories a cupcake: http://sweet-verbena.blogspot.ca/2011/08/pumpkin-muffins.html these are so tasty and you can freeze them a defrost when the sweet tooth hits. But instead of these, and instead of that delicious lemon pound cake, I turn to peanut butter. I finally broke down and bought some sugar-free pudding. I am trying to resist these as well because I don't want to get into the habit of eating them everyday.
But let's get back to the cake. Ever since I received the news and the deadline to a life changing situation, I have wanted to binge. On sweets, on salty treats, whatever I can find and most definitely I want to bake cake after cake after cake and eat them too. So I am very thankful of my transformation in the last year. While I don't always have self control around food, I am 85% better. I haven't binged, only dreamed. Dreamed about warmer temperatures, dreamed about getting a job in Disneyland and dreamed about eating lemon and blueberries in sweet tasting bliss.
This is me
(heading out to see the Lion King on stage)